Age 46

Well, I'm a 46 year old man and I'm happy with that I have had a lot of experiences in my life and have been very lucky to have so many.   I do get depressed sometimes thinking that well if I live to 90 I'm past middle age. Also I look in the mirror and sometimes I see wrinkles or little gray hairs (yeah I'm lucky for this age to have only a few) but, it bothers me because even though I don't want to be in my twenties anymore I miss being young sometimes although like my mother always tells me she is a 20 year old trapped in a 71 year old body.  So I guess I'm a 20 year old trapped in a 46 year old body.  But, tonight my night was made.  I had a goal to get legitimately carded at age 40.  I did at age 42 and thought well I'm happy that surpassed my goal and I will be happy forever.  Well, tonight going into our local casino with my partner I was carded and at first I thought it was a joke but no they would not let me in even when my partner stated that the man was really in the wrong.  I did not argue I was happy to pull out my ID the guy carding me was embarrassed and his co-worker started laughing when they both realized how old I really was.  It made my day, my night and well probably the rest of my life.  I have to say I don't agree and maybe he did need glasses as my partner stated but it sure felt good to be asked again.  So what is an age it is just a number we are all young at heart and we are all beautiful to someone so just smile and go with the flow.  Joe

Thoughts about January 17, 2011

Just thinking today I have heard about several things today.  One is that today is a day of remembering a great man and that he was.   The things Dr. King did for the world are very important and need to be thought of daily and well for today we will celebrate his day.  On the sad point I also heard that January 17 is considered the most depressing day of the year.  Maybe that is for several reasons one may be that it is a day to remember and it is sad to think of all the people we have lost in our lives and how they impacted us in our growth as human beings.  I have lost so many in my life and think of them all often.  However, it is good sometimes to take a day like today and not only remember them but to celebrate their contribution to our lives.   So let's turn this day into a celebration of the soul.  Thinking of all those who have since passed on but left us with something remarkable a memory.   Another memory today was that I was reminded that my Great Grandmother would have been 120 today so I spent some time thinking about all that has happened since she was born up until now.  I did not know her but through my mother, Uncle and others I feel she made an impact on not only those I love but myself as well.

Okay so Joe's thoughts today are all about the past and about the people who are no longer around.  But, I choose not to wallow in self pity for losing so many but to celebrate their lives and thank all of them for being apart of my life.  

I also want to celebrate the people who are currently in my life and thank them for touching me in many ways that makes my  life better.  

Joe